Chapter 111

Bonnie

Boy, has it been a day! A very long, emotionally draining day, but I’m oddly kind of glad that it happened. Of course, hearing Lottie talk to me about how she felt and taking in the words that she said and the meaning behind it all was heartbreaking, but I do believe that having her talk to Nick and me about how she’s been feeling was a good thing.

One because it explains why she said all of the things that she did and two because maybe now that she has finally said everything out loud, it will help her too because she had a lot of thoughts and feelings and while some of them are a result from the pain that her birth mom has caused her during her life, some of them also just resembled an act of a jealous teenage girl.

The quicker she learns that she isn’t going to be replaced or forgotten or lose me or this baby the better because I hate to think of her suffering like that. And while I can’t promise that nothing won’t happen to the baby, I can promis