Chapter 63

“I’m a disgrace to the pack; I am too immature to be an alpha! I have done so much I can’t take back, so many mistakes and I’m wracking my brain, trying to work out how to mend the wrongs… how the fuck-“

“Stop that!” He orders gently, cutting off my ramblings, “don’t you think I made mistakes? Look what I did to your mate’s brother, I made a huge mistake. Someone’s life was ended because of it. I am still alpha because our pack knew it was just that- a mistake. They respect me for giving my life to the pack, to protect them and serving the pack as my family.

I am not perfect. I will never be perfect. Being a good alpha takes time, practice and copious slip-ups. I will never be the world’s best alpha, mate or father, but I do what I can.

I have to admit… I never handled the whole mating situation well with Dean and your mother. It was so difficult. I nearly abandoned them because I found it so hard. It took near-losing Lizzie to make me realise what I did!

I’m still