Chapter 69. Guilt

Matteo's Pov

I took a sip of my alcohol in my office and when I couldn't get enough of it. I threw it against the wall before breaking down to myself.

I hate it when I am lying to her.

Everything is a lie and I can't pretend that everything was fine in the beginning between the two of us.

This lie I'm living with her is fucking me up, especially when I am expecting a pup from someone else soon.

How am I going to explain everything to her that I truly love her but circumstances just change the cause of everything?

I took a sip again from another bottle of pure vodka on my desk and thought of our moments back in her room.

The way she looks at me tonight was so innocent and so pure that I am in doubt of myself for doing this to her.

Maybe I should just tell her the truth yet the events of that night and the consequences of it all are restraining me from telling it to her.

The door opened to my office and I saw Ly