Chapter 42

Colton has always been very safe and very funny. His jokes were not good at all to laugh at, but the shame of others that everyone felt when listening to them was enough for him to feel better in being able to say them. I had a theory that Colton felt his immunity drop extremely fast when he didn't say some nonsense out of time. That, on the one hand, was boring and stupid, but... Considering that adults are reflections of his childhood traumas, maybe he just didn't feel that need to want to be the best, to want to make someone laugh, why as a child he never had someone to do that for him? I didn't know anymore which of my worst theories fit into Colton's past. I was just sure he was weird.

After my brother came up, Colton confessed to having to take medicine to help with anxiety. He was a normal person until the moment the Brotherhood emerged in his life. After that, he started to have a kind of panic that he never described to anyone. Suzane just told me that he looked after