Chapter 184

The Predator

Every breath I took was for her, but sometimes, I wondered if she even knew or even felt that I was suffocating. I never wanted to need her this much. Needing someone was dangerous, but here I was, drowning in her.

I’d lied, I’d killed, I’d betrayed but nothing felt as heavy as the weight of her sobs as she became wreckage in my arms.

Her tears could undo me, and her anger could destroy me, but the worst part was knowing I deserved every bit of it. I wanted to save her from the monsters in the dark, but I never stopped to consider, I might be the worst one of them all. She’d never forgive me, but I’d rather her hate me alive than love me in the grave.

She was my chaos, my calm, my ruin. And I would let her ruin me a thousand times if it meant she stayed. She could walk away right now, and I wouldn’t stop her. But God helped me, and I didn’t know how to let her go.

Every time I held her, I felt like I was balancing on the ed