Chapter 231

#98

Our faces are inches apart, coming even closer. I can feel his breath against my lips, he's so close I can basically taste him again. This boy who has loved me and hurt me in equal measure. This boy who I want more than anything else. This boy who has saved my life more times than I can count. This boy who taught me what love was… but also taught me what pain was.

I pull back at the very last second.

It costs me something physical to do it, a small, involuntary sound escaping before I can stop it, and Eli goes completely still, watching me with a question written across his face that he doesn’t ask out loud.

I force actual distance between us, crossing my arms over my chest like they might hold something together that’s currently threatening to come apart.

“You should go,” I say when I find my vo