Chapter 106. Strangest Thing

BRIANNA’S POV

Sebastian carried me in his arms against my wish to my room like a programmed robot. I tried beating him off but he won’t budge or even listen to my pleas. I know it’s been a month. I know Catherine has been buried even though he didn’t attend the funeral for reasons I still didn’t know about. But I feel I still need more time.

For some reason, I was…scared. Scared I won’t be able to return the love he wanted to show me. Scared I won’t live up to expectations. Scared that my past life might just pop up like a virus and infect what we were going to share. Scared the gap between us was too wide. Scared…I wasn’t good enough for him.

But I didn’t know how to tell him all that. I didn’t want to tell him at all. No doubt he’ll get pissed and feel like I’m pushing him away despite all his efforts. The last thing I want is to push him away again and lose him. I’d be crazy if I lost him. I’ll lose my sense of living if I give him up. He is the rarest of gems,