Chapter 139

I lose all courage and hate that my nerves fritter back to that feeble mess he used to lord over. I’m doing this to myself, and it’s only adding to my fear that things will change. I’m sliding backwards, and all those feelings for him I was overcoming are grabbing me tight and pulling me under.

“Hell, No! You are coming, even if I have to drag you there kicking and screaming.” He snaps at me, and I blink to stop the sudden wash of mist that clouds my vision with surprise tears. Close to emotionally breaking because I’m in a weird, fragile mood. Defences are igniting and doing what they do to shield me. They make me mad.

It’s not a sweet request but a fucking command, and like good old Cam and Lexi, my rage ignites at him thinking he can tell me what to do.

“Fuck off. I’m staying put. You can’t do shit about it; you don’t own me, so stop acting like you do!” I snap right back at him, verbalising that internal issue in my fury; anger meeting anger and our eyes lock o