Chapter 39. Surprise

I’ve been over this and over this, but there isn’t a clear answer. My body is screaming out for my mate, my fated mate. He’s right here, right in front of me. I just….I can’t come to terms with the fact that he’s who he is.

Ivan is a vampire! How is it that I’m fated to a vampire of all people? It isn’t like it never happens; I’ve heard of this here and there. I just never thought I’d get a second chance mate, and it would be a vampire. How am I supposed to deal with that?

To accept Ivan as my mate, I’d eventually mark him. I mark Ivan, and I will lose my wolf, so essentially, I will lose a part of me. How can I go into this knowing that a part of who I am will be gone? I feel like none of this is fair. This must be a punishment for everything I’ve done.

There’s too much flooding in my head, and I needed to get it out. I push back the covers and put my feet on the floor. I need to speak to him, but I’m not even sure what we need to speak about. I