Chapter 39. Jason

David's POV

I was still upset when morning came. I didn't know how to handle my feelings, I didn't want it to blow up in her face and make her hate me. At that exact moment, I wish I could get back to just casual sex with her.

"David... come, have breakfast with us."

Jason, my lover who had been with me through all of my ups and downs handed me the steaming cup of coffee just to my liking.

"She's up?"

I was sipping my coffee, hiding the feel of a kid who was picked last at the playground. I feel like I wanted to drown myself in the sandbox, or just quietly fade and be one with the shrubs.

"Maybe I should listen to you and wait until you talk to her. She's it Jason, and I'm ruining it for both of us aren't I?"

"Baby, you're not..."

Jason took a seat beside me and kissed me, and kept on saying everything would be alright.

"I think I'm going to take a walk and let you talk to her," I said giving him the c