Chapter 39

Alpha Nicholas

Telling Bonnie that final part of what happened has left me feeling so many different things and above all else completely drained. I feel like I could sleep for a month but on the other hand, I also feel relieved that she knows but more than anything I feel pure terrifying fear. Once I knew I wanted her with every fiber of my bearing I was afraid that she would leave after all I had put her through but now…

Well, now I’m fucking terrified that she will, and while there’s a part of me that still wants her to so that I know she will live and can have the chance of being happy there’s another part of me that never wants to let her go regardless of what could be. And while it sounds awful, I’m only thinking that way because it’s been a few days since we met and yet she’s still alive so maybe we have a chance… Just maybe.

I’m pulled out of my wondering mind as my mate wiggles on my lap. She seems concerned but nothing like I thought she would be.