Chapter 63. Secrets

I’ve been lost in my thoughts, anxious, obsessing, crying, and worrying myself sick with the chaos of this lack of closure. I’m not being a cold idiot, cutting him off, or avoiding him like he is with me. I would talk to him in a heartbeat if he let me. It’s like he just abandoned me after dumping me in his sub pack, with no idea what I’m supposed to be now, how to feel, and what I’m meant to do after the full moon.

If he marks her, where do I go? What do I do? I’m only here because of my link to him. I’m not a Santo, I don’t belong here, and although the sub pack seems to be warming to me, I’m not bonded to them. I’m not one of them, and Carmen will kick my ass to the curb the second he marks her.

She’ll be his Beta until she takes her place as Luna, pushing Meadow down the ranks, from merely becoming his mate. She’ll have more say than any of them, and I can see Colton allowing her to move me out for the sake of their pairing. She hates me passionately and spends all h