Chapter 37. Fastfoward

3 months later

Perched at my preferrent spot beside the pool, I cruise my eyes around the placid turquoise waters. I am always calmed by the sight of the still blue water. Unfortunately, my life has yet to become this nonbelligerent.

The past three months have been just like hell on earth in this house. Nothing has altered, even with my belly bump that is beginning to show. Ooh, yes. I am feeling it as we speak, wanting to feel the magic of a life thriving inside of me once again, but I know I am dreaming. It’s too early to feel it kick, but I cannot help the ebullience and gloating that come with it.

I can vividly recall how beautiful it was before I felt my baby kick me. I would always grimace and get lost in that magical feeling. It is such a sweet, beautiful moment I would have wished to live in forever, but now I cannot help the vexation and the anxiety.

I might have succeeded in getting pregnant, but the fright of the past always manages to catch up wit