Chapter 44. Call the Doctor

LEO

Her cry tore through me like glass shredding my insides.

So bad, I pressed my forehead against the door, my hands trembling.

Every instinct screamed at me to go in, to hold her, to beg her to believe me—but I stayed frozen at the spot.

My body felt numb, my mind a storm of self-loathing.

“I ruined everything.”

I slid down to the floor, my back against her door, and pressed the heels of my hands into my eyes.

Her cries kept growing louder and louder.

It hurts so much to hear her cry, and knowing I can’t do anything about it made it even more painful.

I have never been emotionally connected to anyone as much as I have with her. Could that be the reason?

Or could it be the guilt that my lack of performance is the reason she burst into tears?

I wanted to break the door down, hug her and convince her that she was wrong, that it’s not her, that it’s me. I can’t tell exactly what is wrong with me, but I know for sure it’