Chapter 57

Days passed without anything happening; I couldn't just strip in front of Zen and say I wanted to get pregnant. What should I say to explain to him when he suddenly asks or wonders about my sudden change of mind? What will I say when he asks about my staying a virgin? I still don't know how I can explain it to him in a way that won't lead to an argument between him and Dastan.

Would it be better if I talked to Dastan first, so I could find out his real reason?

I've been told by certain girls that Zen won't be surprised when we start biting, but what am I going to say after this? That I only chose to get pregnant because I had my own reasons? Is he the cause of our misunderstanding? I don't want Zen to get pregnant and hate me.

I am currently combing my long hair in front of the mirror while waiting for Zen to return from yet another meeting. After the meetings that the Gazellians were attending because of the tragedy at the ceremony, they expected me to attend thes