Chapter 100. Hello, Ruby

RUBY

After Toby walked out the door he looked beaten down and hurt. My facade crumbled. I knew I should have slammed the door behind him to show irritation but I couldn't bring myself to it. If he looked back he would have seen the longing in my eyes. I watched as he disappeared into the elevator and the doors closed shut behind him before I slammed the door. I slid down, resting my back against the door while rocking a wailing Jeremy in my arms.

The rest of my morning was a bust, Jeremy was inconsolable. Every time I thought the crying was over, it would resume in full force. I bathed him, made him a snack, and tried to get him to nap but all these things only managed to pacify him for a while. Each time he resumed crying with more vengeance than the last time. It reminded me of those early days when motherhood frazzled me. At the time I was worried I was doing something wrong or that he was sick but Toby reassured me. I felt like chasing Toby down but things were