Chapter 102

XANDER

I did a lot of things I never thought I would last night. I fucked a virgin, we don't have to focus on the part that I didn't even actually fuck her. No, I fucking made love to her. I went slow because I didn't want to hurt her.

Then the little detail that I did sleep with her, I said I wasn't going to do that until we were married. But the moment I had her back pressed to that bed, I knew I wouldn't be able to get up until I knew what she felt like wrapped around me. And she felt like heaven, now I don't know how the fuck I'm not supposed to want to do that again.

The third is, I got in bed with her, after I cleaned her up. I've never done that. I barely look at the faces of the woman I fucked when I was done with them. She'd rolled over to the side of the bed, arms wrapped around her and her eyes tightly shut. She wasn't sleeping, but I let her believe I fell for it.

Over all, I felt bad, and that is