Chapter 53. Fading Memories?

        I have been shot and stabbed multiple times, I have lost people I loved, I have been betrayed, I have gone through hell and back, but I have never been hurt like the past week. Leaving Aella, was the worst of them all, watching her cry and sleep behind a fucking laptop drove me to the point of insanity.

     I cried while watching her, I couldn't eat because I had no appetite, I was a shadow of myself. But, above all, I am nothing but a coward, a weak man running because he fears the outcome of love. Aella scares me, I fear losing her more than I fear having the videos of my worst nightmare flying around.

    I have tried to find more suitable words to describe my feelings for her. The word Love doesn't do justice to it...I fear it carries little weight. I burn for her, my heart beats solely for her. I only started living when those blues landed on me. I will die for her, and then rise again to die for her. She is m