Chapter 105

Although last night's sex with Lizzie was wonderful. I couldn't tell her my actual feelings or should I say regrets?

I guess she doesn't even have a clue how much I've missed our Dom/sub sex ever since we got married and Holden became a part of her life too.

I have not been able to stop regretting the fact that I agreed to share her with Holden. Had I known, I wouldn't have agreed to this threesome relationship then. 

Now, I am going to have to find a new sub, afterall I'm wealthy and ought to enjoy my life as I please, fuck ageing. We are mates, I still love her, like seriously I fucking do, but I can't continue to deprive myself of my favorite sexual pleasure.

I know she's going to get hurt when she finds out. She's going to get the signs of her mate cheating on her. But I don't know how I'm going to explain to her about my desire for it. 

If only Holden had agreed to this, if only he would see reasons with me, things would