Chapter 108

My next step "approved by everyone involved" is to find an author who listens to my voice and tells my story to encourage others who have been abused and prefer to suffer from shame and indignation for fear of seeking help. Sexual abuse is the worst crime a human being could commit, and even so, it is the victims who feel judged and worthy of such suffering. I want to tell you my true story. Even if people know my trauma, they don't know the demons I face every day. They don't know that I have personalities that change my voice, behavior and "in my head" my own appearance. The lapses I have are brief, but they exist.

I feel that contributing is the missing step for my recovery. I need to expose the indigestible truths of a story that few will be interested in reading, and if in doing so I can help alert and free those who need to face their demons, although strong language can shock and cause revolt, then I will have fulfilled my obligation to be