Chapter 188

And now, she is not here anymore. I can't wrap my head around anything. I swing my arm up to cover my eyes. I can't stand the brightness of the morning, it feels like the universe is taunting me. How can time be moving on when my world is unstable?

Did she break up with me? Are we broken up? I am forty four and I can't tell. But I do know one thing. The ugly ache stuck in my chest. Her words hurt me and I was too numb to act when she finally said she had to leave because she needed space. I just watched her. And she left. It took me hours of stunned hurtful silence before I could pull myself together and spring into action.

Amelia leaving because I couldn't understand her resignation nor did I accept it made me realise that it really didn't matter what I think is best for her. What mattered, what I should have realised mattered more was her own opinion about how she wanted to live her life. That was the genesis of our rift.

I am fiercely protective of her, more so after t