Chapter 154. Her Hope and Hopelessness

"I know how cruel you are, Irtaza... I committed a mistake... an error that has put me out of the line you have set for me... and you don't take offenses lightly... I am scared. I am so scared. I have no one. I have no place where I could go and seek refuge. It's just you and you, Irtaza. You are my hope and hopelessness," she cried out, pouring her heart into her sentences.

She still didn't have the right words to express what she felt. Neither the language she spoke nor any language in the world had the right words to capture her helplessness and desperation in one word. 

She wondered what her father must be thinking at this moment. Would he be hurt? Or would he be angry for the crime she committed? She couldn't justify her actions, but she did what was told to her to achieve what she desired. She was wrong. She was aware of it. She shouldn't have betrayed Irtaza like that. But life gave her no other option. 

All she thought was to suppress the guilt an