Chapter 54

Growing up, I never harbored a grudge against my parents, especially my mother who left me in the orphanage. I didn't get angry and I didn't blame them for why they didn't like me, because how am I going to miss and hate on people I haven't even met? Especially the one who is pregnant with mom. And because of that maybe I was happy and satisfied at the orphanage somehow. Another thing is that Sister Sicily made me understand the value of forgiveness, the understanding of the situation of our children who were left in the orphanage. She also told me that my mother sure loves me enough to leave me in the orphanage. Because if he really didn't care about me, maybe they would have just thrown me somewhere.

While thinking, I tried to feel the pain when they left me. I tried to search my heart for anger, but there was none. I am not being bitter, I am just being true. It's not like Steven left me. Him divorcing me feels like my life is slowly being taken away from my body. Th