Chapter 95

Killian's POV

Paula wrapped me in a hug after I said those words to her. I was honest at a bare minimum, she did matter to me, I cared about her but I also cared about Esmeralda. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I couldn't help it, I can't just wake up in the morning and not love Esmeralda. it was impossible and although I didn't show her, although I didn't prove it to her and made sure to choose Paula over her time and again, it didn't mean I didn't care about her. I did. But what could I do? I have a responsibility to Paula, especially now that she is pregnant.

Before, it used to be just that I respected her, I felt guilty. Because she had left her mate for me, but it wasn't the case anymore, now I was obligated to care for her, now it was more than just me, it was more than the guilt I felt, more than the respect I have for her. Now there was a child involved, I couldn't just leave her no matter how much I wanted to. I couldn't. And most times, I tried to consol