Chapter 115. Southampton

Tristan's POV

It pained me to see Elona and not get much from her when I was at her apartment, but what did I expect? I wanted to hold her so badly, to feel her, but that wouldn't happen. I sat on the edge of the hotel bed, my head hanging with my shoulders sagged as if I was defeated. She defeated me. Was the text even a bad idea? 

I let out a heavy breath as I stood up from the bed and walked out of the hotel room. I needed some air. At this point, I thought being in Southampton would change my feelings or change my outlook on life, but the hurt just doesn't go away. I don't know how to deal with this. I have barely dealt with the loss and pain from losing Estelle and our unborn baby and now this...this was a punch to my gut. 

I walked down the street, it was a busy day and I found myself walking to the familiar spots that Estelle and