Chapter 104

A man who puts importance on using sex to manipulate, control and punish is giving me the reins and letting me fly. It’s the most significant way he could show me this is not what I feared it would be when it finally happened. He isn’t using this power to control me again. He is giving me the lead in sex, so I always know I’ll be safe with him this way. When I’m at my most vulnerable, he lets me control what we are doing for the safety I desperately need to feel secure with him.

He’s making me trust him when I’m at my most unsure.

It’s as massive as telling me he loves me all over again, and I start to cry softly as my body builds to a crescendo of intensity, suddenly overwhelmed in all my senses and unable to stop it. It leaks out of me from nowhere, and I get so instantly emotional I cannot stop.

“Hey, what is it?” He stops the motion of us and leans up, using his elbow to prop to a half-sitting position while the other hand comes to wipe away my tears, stilling