Chapter 80

I wake up in Alexi’s bed alone, memories of last night flitting through my head like it was all a dream from another place, another dimension, and none of it was real. Alexi made love to me for hours. Not like before, not like anything I ever expected of him. Silent in the darkness of his room, my body surrendered, and he brought me to heights of pleasure over and over.

No rush, no war between us, no pain, no punishment, no being held down or bound. No aggression, dominance or ownership. We never spoke at all. Just two people locked in getting pleasure from one another, and all else faded away to unimportance. Alexi made me feel like he could be something more and gave me a taste of what it would be like to be loved by someone like him. Just a glimpse, he can be gentle and considerate and fulfil a need when you don’t even know what it is.

He made me feel better, he took my mind elsewhere, and not once did he put me in a position that gave me fear. He responded to my nois