Chapter 97

“I wish it never happened either. I’m not just saying that because I got her pregnant; I wish I had realized the moment I fell in love with you that sex with anyone else would never fix me. I was stupid and only gave you more reasons to push me away.” He is gazing intensely into my eyes, every shade of green coming into play with every emotion, and right now, I’m mesmerized. I look away, swallowing down the surge of hurt at the memory of him leaving me on that boat to release his sexual tension with other women to get over me. “It never helped me. I just felt shitty,” he whispers against my cheek. “It just made me even more messed up in the head, feeling more and more distraught.”

“You don’t need to tell me this…” I start, the panic rising that he will admit to everything I don’t want to hear. I don’t need to know about the women who kept him occupied while we were apart.

“I need to tell you this, Emma… You need to hear it, if only so that I stop feeling guilty about it