Chapter 42

He throws me a wary look, and I nod gently, impatient to know more about him, even if I feel a little dubious. Mentally storing the name to search on Google when I’m alone. Even if he explains well, it won’t be enough, and now I want to know everything there is to know about what it is. This is a significant thing.

“It’s characterised by impulsive, irresponsible and criminal behaviour. Manipulation, deceit, lack of empathy, and sometimes controlling behaviour. Aggression, violence, pushing people into things I want and not giving a shit what it does to them. Sex is often a weapon and something I know I use. Doesn’t exactly paint a good picture of me, does it?” Alexi is sombre, as though regretting telling me this and realising he is doing the opposite of giving me a reason to trust him, but it’s not like that for me. He’s being honest about the worst of him and not hiding this from me. He is shining a light on what could earn my forgiveness by being truthful with me. Laying it