Chapter 176

Cole’s POV

My wolf starts whining loudly as soon as the mule pulls into a spot at the north end of the pack house. How I’m even recognizing the pack house is a mystery as I’m really struggling with maintaining my mind in the present. Lucas coming after me again has put me back, damn near to where I was when I got here.

The more I come back to reality the more it physically and mentally hurts, discouraging me from keeping the connection. Is it odd to say I can choose not to be here? But then again it’s not any better to be in my own head, filled with the terrible memories of my childhood and my not so distant past.

I’m present enough to follow alpha’s orders and follow his beta through the doors. The smell of antiseptic hits me hard as we enter the first room we come to, bringing me back to reality enough to know I’m where I don’t want to be.

I turn hard and attempt to leave out the same doors I came through but alpha easily blocks my way and