Chapter 49. Plagued Mind

Bear's POV

Somehow I fell asleep. I'm amazed I did, but falling asleep was the easy part. The hard part was staying asleep. I kept waking, feeling the need to take control, and I wanted to give in every time I woke up. I would open my eyes ready to give in and see Emmi lying next to me, and that made me fight it off. It made me want to fight against the hold the d***s have so she doesn't see me like that. I don't want to disappoint her, and I know if I allow this to spiral out of control, I will.

I still see it and remember it now, her in that room and her disappointment in me as I searched for d***s, barely even noticing that she was with me. All I could think about was Adelia, those pictures in my mind, and I had to escape them, and the only way I could think of at that moment was to numb it all. Then there was the feeling of being a disappointment to everyone, I became so damn weak, I should have been stronger. I didn't though, I fell to my knees and gave in to t