Chapter 236

Authors POV.

Nikolai.

It wasn't so easy with her now that it was real; he was beginning to feel emotions he never wanted in the first place; one was guilt, hot, soaking, dripping guilt.

He couldn't shake off the feeling that he was the reason for her sudden loss of confidence after years of ignoring her existence, repeatedly choosing Alexa over her even though he knew she had some feelings for him.

He remembered that night, the night Alexa left again, the night he had fallen toward the liquor, st***d himself so severely it had taken a bunch of walls to get him to his room finally.

Successful in not hitting the ground, he turned in the knob of the door, pushing it open, and came to the sight of her sitting on his bed.

Only in her skimpy blue nightie and barefoot, she didn't look lost, she had a mission, and he had never felt so weak at the sight of a semi-naked woman.

It had to be because he was at his lowest point didn't mean he didn't put u