Chapter 72

I shrug, feeling out of touch yet in sync with inner child. I down the rest of my drink, nearly choking on the last gulp. My inner child knows he exists, she built her life around him but she lost faith when he didn't hear her pleas for help and I convinced her he didn't love us anymore, he wouldn't want us as tainted as we are but she hang on to the hope that he forgives. Maybe if I were more like her God would love me too, but honestly, I'm constantly questioning if my sins made him forsake me maybe I did too much for devil and now heaven can't save me.

“Whatever the case, I wish he could have let me have Caelum or the baby.”

“Caelum again?” Olivia sips her drink. “What's the story there?”

“He wants vengeance for breaking his heart, what an asshole I loved him. I love that man with every fiber of my being, I gave him the best months of my life. See why I don't believe there's a God up there, well at least not one that loves me.” I sniff, “Caelum wants to break me