Chapter 36. Are You Courting Death?

Still Bethany’s POV

I feel dead inside, it felt like the earth was crumbling from underneath my feet and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.

It hurts,

It hurts so bad.

I can literally feel my heart shattering into a million pieces as he walked out and banged the door so hard that the entire room shook and vibrated. Carl and Harriet rushed in immediately, Li could hear their voices as they checked my body for bruises, checking to know if I’m still alive.

They were standing so close, calling out to me, but their voices felt so distant, it felt so far away. I felt like I was drowning in a deep pool, going deep under the water. People always say that getting drowned is not a good experience, but I love this feeling of nothingness, I welcomed the emptiness within me. This is better than being in his presence, feeling his anger and hatred and disgust. 

It felt like death, and I loved it. I can’t bear the pain and hurt that comes with thinking a