Chapter 93. I'm Doomed

Lorenzo 

I finished in my office and decided to turn in for the night, or should I say I’m turning in for the morning because it’s already 4:00 am. All I want to do is to sprawl on my bed and sleep off until the sun comes up, I’m so damn tired. I went to my room and ran a warm bath for myself, then I slumped on my bed and hugged my pillow, trying to fall asleep. I kept turning and churning, trying to fall asleep but I couldn’t sleep. I wonder what is wrong with me, I’ve always slept alone on this bed, I’ve never had difficulty falling asleep before, why am I feeling this way tonight, what the hell is wrong with me. Could it be because of her, do I want her in my arms tonight?

What if she doesn’t want me, what if he pushes me away. Besides she is still moaning about the death of her mother, it wouldn’t be nice to ask her to warm my bed when she is obviously in so much pain. That would be so selfish of me, I can’t do that with her, I can’t hurt her that much. But I ca