Epilogue (2)

Alpha Nicholas

Three Weeks Later

I close the main door to our floor and instantly I’m met with silence, it’s a sound I’m not used to anymore and one that I thought I would enjoy tonight but I was wrong, so wrong. since the day Wade was born this place has been constantly filled with noise between everyone visiting to meet Wade and then coming back to offer their help or bringing us preprepared meals and my family constantly being here, it feels like the only time we have any peace is at night once we finally get to bed and even that doesn’t last long, but still, it being this quiet seems wrong. I can’t win with myself, I really can’t.

I love my boy more than he’ll ever know but that boy does not sleep and while I wouldn’t change any moment of his life for anything, I can’t deny that I’m fucking exhausted. Nonetheless, tonight is the first night that Bonnie and I have allowed anyone to mind our son overnight, and as hard as it is to let him go and be w