Chapter 281. Tense Atmosphere

Rachel

When I finished washing my clothes, I felt lonely and completely isolated from everyone in the house. I wondered if feeling this way was normal or if I was just a very needy person who needed to always be surrounded by people to quell that cruel feeling.

Perhaps I have always been a needy person. Maybe that explains why I did so many things that people abhor. I don't know. I don't understand. I also don't accept.

The truth is, I always received more attention from my parents than Sarah did because I always demanded more, reflecting on my childhood and adolescence. Now I realize that didn't necessarily mean they liked me more than her.

To be completely honest with myself, my mother never gave us much attention, of us. Even when she sent nannies to take me away from her, I was still there, demanding her attention, making me feel closer to her.

When I became old enough to no longer need nannies, I sought her out myself, without rely