Chapter 52. Departure

BARRY

I look at my hands, I want to burst into tears as soon as I see her leave. I feel like something is slowly leaving me, leaving me with an emptiness that I knew she would leave, I mean... she was never there, Mom, she became a painful ghost that I remembered from time to time and I knew she was out there... somewhere being happy and that when she needed my father or me, she would come home and pretend she loved me... but that's not going to happen again, because she's dead. Mariana is gone forever and it hurts... everything hurts, it also burns when I think of Kelly. That woman is the one I love... but I always screw up, because I don't think I've ever felt that before... I think it's a new feeling that causes a lot of fear and dread.

I love Kelly because she is nice, and has a nice smile and besides that...she will be the mother of my children...or daughters...one of two possibilities, but ultimately my children. I just want to feel like I do something good, even o