Chapter 148

One Month Later.

Alaric’s POV

One month.

Thirty days.

Over seven hundred hours.

That was how long it had been since I last spoke to Meadow, touched her, kissed her, held her… I was losing my fucking mind.

‘Thud.’

I couldn’t do it anymore. Couldn’t live without her, couldn’t fucking function without her.

‘Thud.’ My fist connected with my diamond-studded punching bag again and again and again until I was satisfied.

However, I was never fucking satisfied. I didn’t feel the pain—only the pressure. I watched my knuckles carefully to see if they would break: I didn’t want to let myself get carried away.

I only caused enough damage to be able to treat with my first aid box. The diamonds had already turned reddish, stained with my blood. And yet, I wasn’t ready to stop.

I needed her.

‘Thud.’

But I broke her.

‘Another thud.’

I didn’t deserve her. I did something that was unforgiveable—s