Chapter 10

I walked into the clinic with my hoodie pulled over my head and tried to avoid all eye contact. I had hoped for it to be a quick visit, just like I had expected them to remove the baby as soon as possible, but it wasn’t anything like that.

I woke up feeling anxious and perhaps even a bit excited because I believed I couldn’t wait to get rid of the baby, but it didn’t take long before reality kicked in. There was this feeling of guilt and also the bit of excitement of finally having something of my own. Something I didn’t have to share.

If I kept the baby I would never be alone, but if I kept this baby it would be yet another mouth to feed and babies were expensive. Google was my best friend, the costs of $13,000 a year shocked me and was something I couldn’t afford.

That amount of money on top of what I had to pay to take care of myself sounded ridiculous and unrealistic. For me to make that much extra I would have to work as hard as a horse. Who would even watch t