Chapter 55

It has never occured to me that Linc believed I would be the one to leave. To end things. I don't know why I have always just thought he would be the one to turn me away when he gets bored or had enough of me. Or can't stand that I still feel guilty even though my mother hurt him. I just always thought there was one way this was going to end and that the decision laid with him. Because I was in love with him. I love him.

I have never thought about what would happen when my three months is up. I have spent a month and the time flew by me in a haze. A lot has happened. I have lived experiences that I didn't think was possible. Taboos. Forbidden. I have been bold and I have enjoyed it.

I don't think I would be the same person I used to be before I came down to New York. But that doesn't mean I wouldn't go back to my life in Boston.

I have got college. It is important to me to finish school. My degree would be the one thing that would belong sorely to me in this world. I need