Chapter 80

Killian's POV

I left Paula. I had left Paula.

I ran away from the hospital even though Paula needed me. I left her because I needed to get to Esmeralda.

I was a jerk. A bastard. An idiot.

Stupid.

There was nothing in the dictionary that I could find that would describe how insane and humane I was to Paula.

I stood there speechless after she told me she was pregnant with my child but I couldn't say anything. I was such a coward.

Paula needed me around, Paula needed me to say something, to tell her that I wasn't going to abandon her but I didn't say anything. I left her there to take care of herself, I left her there abandoning her and our unborn child.

I was saying these words, scolding myself but I was still in my car, driving like a maniac to my house to see Susan, to get told to my face that Esmeralda was missing.

I can't even weigh the importance of those two things.

Paula announced to me a new child and Esmeralda wa