Chapter 12. Insensitive Heart

Evelyn

I stepped out of the doctor’s office, my heart heavy and light all at once. It thudded violently against my ribs, my breath coming in shallow bursts. My skin felt cold, and tears prickled at the corners of my eyes. The feelings surged, intensifying with every second, creeping into every cell of my body.

I felt lost. Hopeless. Overwhelmed.

Was I ready to be a mother?

I didn’t know.

Was it too soon? Maybe.

But not once, in the whirlwind of thoughts swirling in my mind, did the idea of harming the tiny soul growing inside me cross my mind. My decision had already been made before I even realized there was one to make. I knew what I was going to do.

I just didn’t know how.

Two and a half months. Probably from our time in America. And yet, until two days ago, the thought hadn’t even occurred to me.

Lost in thought, I pushed open the door to our apartment. The evening light filtered through the large windows, casting a wa