Chapter 82

Xavier’s POV

I woke up with a splitting headache. I tried to lift my head, but I felt like I had a ton of bricks weighing me down. There were bodies beside me. Must be the girls I invited over last night... Or was it the day before? I don’t really remember. I don’t remember a lot of things these days. One day is just like the others, so I thought that drinking alcohol would help me pass the time quickly. After living for so long, we should have known better.

I have been doing some thinking and let’s just say, thinking led to everything, and it didn’t go so well. The only available solution for me was to drown myself at the bottom of the barrel. And that didn’t go well either. I have lost myself. I lost myself a long time ago. Every time I thought I was in control, I have been proven to be wrong.

I thought I could handle a blast from the past, but I was wrong. I have made myself up to be tough, but the truth is I was weak and vulnerable. I am not strong at al