Chapter 101. Green-Eyed Monster

ALESSANDRO

Horror.

Absolute shock.

What is happening to me?

Why does everyone get away with deceiving me?

I feel useless and as dumb as a bitch. Can I ever get anything right?

Why do I always get used by people?

I’m a dumb mafia boss.

A very dumb mafia boss.

Possibly the worst mafia boss in history.

With each wave of hatred and self-torture, I downed yet another glass of whisky down with great force.

I need something as heavy as this. I need to drown out the voices of my rotten father and my useless grandfather.

My father was laughing at me. I could hear it loud and clear.

It’s in my head. His voice is in my head and I can’t get it out. It’s so loud that I hate it.

I hate hearing his roaring laughter as I imagined him smacking me over the head like he usually does which he knew that I hated.

I hated it whenever he did that. He made me feel very worthless and weak.

Like I would never amoun