Chapter 149

On Monday, I couldn't speak to Jackson; could barely glance in his direction. I was so embarrassed I'd shown my true colors to him. Strangers fucking me no longer bothered me too much. Having my friends know what a whore I was made it much worse. The list of friends was growing longer. Jackson recognized my discomfort and left me alone. I waited quietly for Suki to show up. She got there and we rode silently down to the lake. I wasn't very talkative, and Suki realized I was in some pain.

"Do you miss Tanner?" Suki asked.

I did miss Tanner, very much. I wished he was here. I should never have agreed to Oliver's bet, hoping I could give Tanner a child before my year was up. If I'd just resisted Tanner's desire for a baby, he'd be here now and I wouldn't be giving myself to Oliver every chance he got. On the other hand, I was glad he wasn't here right now. I was so ashamed of myself, I felt there was a big red 'A&#