Chapter 58. February – May

February 19, 2024

Dear Noah G.,

It’s the month of February. Most lovers remember it for Valentine’s Day, but for me, I remember it as our 100th anniversary, my betrayal, and our drastic breakup. I can’t believe it; in reality, it has been just a year. Whereas for me, it felt like centuries without you.

People used to say time goes really slow in hell, and I used to laugh at them for saying it as if they actually had the real hell experience. I mean, you go to hell after you die, and if you die, how could you be here to share your afterlife experience? But it’s me who misunderstood them; heaven and hell aren’t the afterlife stuff. It is here in this living world. People get their reward and punishment, both in the real world. For example, me. Without you, my time goes really slowly like I’m in hell. It is all because of my sin. Yeah, Noah, I have never told you, but I have cheated on you once. I kiss