Chapter 135

school I pull up to park my jeep in our drive, on autopilot. So done with this day and glad it’s over even if I know I have to do it all over again tomorrow. Just stepping one foot in front of the other and taking each hour as it comes seems so hard for me, and I cannot remember what living normally feels like anymore. I don’t recall being anything but sad and it’s seemed to drag on for an eternity.

I cannot shift the eternal low mood, broken heart, or heaviness that’s killing all my mojo or making it impossible to think straight. Even doing schoolwork seems like a mountainous task, and I got so much wrong today. Dane plagues me, and the longer we go on without any form of contact the worse the missing him seems to be. I would give anything to hear his voice just once or see him in person, even from afar. I feel like half of my soul has been ripped out, and the sudden separation has given me no way to close the relationship between us. My heart is still clinging on for his return, e