Chapter 156

This marriage thing it’s not a tool or a game for him. It’s not a validation of ownership. If I use it to wound him, he won’t keep coming, and I’ll end up losing him with no one to blame but myself. I need to stop using his heart against him because I know I can. It’s drawing a line in the sand.

The dam bursts, and the sobs follow. Probably relief that he’s right here with me once more, and it’s not too late. I can choose to leave loneliness behind me and take a leap of faith, even if it scares the shit out of me. Stop pushing him and hold on tight.

Those three sentences that seem so insignificant to anyone else are at the centre of everything that’s wrong with my life, past, and memories. All that has ever been wrong.

I had no one. No one loved me. No one cared.

I was a forgotten little girl whose own mother despised her, and her father never wanted to see her again. I spent my life fighting to look after myself and not let anyone close for fear of being hur