Chapter 105

Girls like me don’t have heroes and happy-ever-afters. They have lives like mine that end in some sad, tragic way, and no one remembers their name. There is no happy ever after for me. There is no way out.

The emptiness and desolation are not only about Alexi. It’s about me and my existence, knowing it will never get any better. These past few months were the closest to any realness to relationships I have ever felt, and all it has caused me is pain. It has highlighted how far from the road to worthy I am or will ever be. I’m hopeless and worthless; no one cares what happens to me. Even Mico will forget about me in time. I will become a burden to him as I have done to Alexi.

It’s all there laid out in front of me with the most obvious solution in bold letters, and I know what I must do to get out of this. I know how to end this war between us and free myself from any more.

“You’re right, you know?” I smile through my tears at him, taking in that face that I both lo